Twenty-five

Simple Troubles

      Wufei shut the door behind us and stepped to me, kissing me...
      He had to be one of the best kissers I knew...I let it go on for a while, stopping before it could reach the next level...not as hard to do as it would have been if I’d let it go on.
      He was really convincing, though...unlike most guys...and seemed completely sincere in everything he said...
      This had never happened before...his kisses were pure and full of fire...No guy had ever enticed me this much...
      I had to stop this.
      “Wufei...”
      “Mm-hmm...” his voice was deep. Even that was enticing.
      “Stop...”
      His mouth, which had been on my throat, stopped. He pulled back, looking at me, “What?”
      I swallowed, sitting up and pulling away, “I can’t do this...”
      “What?” he repeated as I straightened out. He was basically pissed. He had let go of me and now he moved a bit further away.
      I couldn’t meet his eyes, “I just can’t...”
      His hand trailed down my ear and I couldn’t resist his touch.
      How the hell had the situation changed? I was the on in control...always...but now...
      He reached his other hand out and pulled me back to him, kissing me in that sweet, hard way.
      It continued like that for a while. Me occasionally pulling away and him quick to reach the part he left off at...
      If this continued, he’d win.
      “Wufei...” I started as he used one hand to undo my jeans, “Stop...”
      This time he didn’t even pull away, “You know you want it.”
      “Yes...” I started, but his mouth covered mine before I could go on.
      “If you really wanted me to stop,” he muttered, “You’d have stopped me by now.”
      It was true, but I had to stop. It didn’t matter how bad I wanted him...I had to stop.
      I wasn’t sure exactly why, but I knew how. It was simple. I just was having a hard time gaining the will-power to do it...
      “No.”
      He stopped, then pulled back to look at me, his chest heaving.
      As simple as that.
      For the first time it occurred to me how close we actually were to having sex.
      Too close.
      He stared at me.
      I shook my head, not being able to meet his eyes again, “I’m sorry...”
      He was still watching me as he stood...only God knew what he was thinking...
      He threw something at me and re-buttoned his jeans. He grabbed his shirt and started for the door, murmuring something about ‘Fucking teases...’
      He slammed the door.
      Now would be the time for a sigh of relief.
      I looked down to see what he’d thrown.
      A condom.
      For some reason, I didn’t feel very relieved.
      I went into the bathroom and ran the tub, feeling sorry for myself.
      I was losing him to that bitch because she was in heat and I’d made the mistake of moving on too quickly.
      I soaked in the tub until the water got cold, then climbed out. I didn’t feel like getting dressed yet...I’d wanted to cry all night...I gave in finally, no one was here...I just wanted to be held...wrapped in warm arms...
      It was cold and empty without him...the bed was too big...
      Reading helped. Reading always helped. It would be nice to lose myself in someone else’s world...I dug my book out of the nightstand and turned on the light, glancing at the clock, two-thirty.
      Around three-thirty, I finally put aside the part that felt sorry for myself. Why should I? There was Wufei...he was more than willing...and like Heero had said, I could have any guy I wanted.
      I started to think over everything that happened, and started to get pissed again.
      Heero was a stupid fucking asshole. He had his head so far up his ass that he couldn’t see the sun. I had basically told him how I felt, and he’d told me that he didn’t understand. The dumb-ass...
      But I still loved him.
      There was a knock on the door and I sighed...just as I’d expected, it was Wufei.
      “Yeah?”
      “Are you all right?” he asked, coming in, I realized that I was only wearing the robe...fortunately I’d tied the belt this time...
      I smiled at him, “Yeah, I’m fine.” I wasn’t really that surprised at how quickly I’d moved from nearly sleeping with him to dwelling on my situation with Heero again, “I’m just getting ready formm...”
      Before I could finish he cupped my face in his hands and kissed me...
      Which was a problem. I really did want to fuck him...if just to see if he was as good as his kiss.
      “I could join you...” he muttered, still holding my face.
      I was tempted...so tempted...but...
      He was kissing me again...he steered me to the bed without breaking the kiss...oh...I couldn’t do this...I just couldn’t...
      I broke the kiss, “Wufei...”
      “You want me, don’t you?”
      That was a double edged blade.
      “Conceited much?”
      He laughed, kissing me again.
      I pulled back, trying to straighten my thoughts.
      “Come on, Nikki...” he muttered, moving close again, “You want me...I want you... there’s no reason to fight it...” he kissed me, “Besides, it’ll piss Heero off...” he hadn’t really stopped kissing me as he talked...
      I broke it off again, “Wufei...” It was scary how close his reasoning was to my own...but he wasn’t supposed to know it...
      “Nikki...” I still avoided his mouth, “What’s he doing? Where’s he at? What do you think he’s doing? He’s with the bitch, and he left you...”
      I avoided this kiss and stood. His reasoning was getting to me and he knew it. I also knew that it was wrong.
      He sighed and stood too, “Are you sure?”
      I nodded.
      He shook his head, “I’ve never been kissed like that.”
      I smiled at him, “You’re a good kisser...”
      He smiled, “Am I now...”
      Before I could reply, however, he was kissing me again and this time it struck me as funny, I pulled away, laughing, “You need to leave.”
      “Scared you’ll fuck me if I stay?”
      I laughed, “Yes. Why ask if you already know?”
      He grabbed the belt to my robe and watched me with wide intent eyes, “Please?”
      His eyes were so genuine...he was either an ultimate player, or actually sincere...I doubted he was sincere, though...well...he sincerely wanted to fuck...but that wasn’t the same.
      “I’ll see you in the morning...” I pushed him slightly so he stepped back, leading him to the door...
      He glanced at the clock, “It’s morning now...”
      “Yes, it is. But I mean my morning...as in after I sleep.”
      He stopped as we reached the door and kissed me again...this kiss was getting a bit out of hand though...I gasped as my robe came open, breaking the kiss...
      He smiled at me, “Can’t your sleep wait?” Then started laughing, trying to kiss me again.
      “Good night, Wufei...” I opened the door and shoved him out, shutting and locking it behind him.
      I could hear him laughing as he went down the hall, and something told me that he would be back again.
      I looked to the clock, four.
      Hmm...
I may as well take him up on it...
      I decided that jamas were a better idea than the robe though. I found it amusing that I was choosing specific jamas for this...not like I would wear them long...
      I chose some black silk ones. The pants were long and loose and the top was a tank with spaghetti straps...
      I sprayed a bit of perfume on myself for good measure, and settled back on the bed to wait, picking up my book again.
      It was nearly five when there was another tap on the door...but it was different.
      I opened the door, confused...
      To see Heero and Sam.
      “Look what I found!” Sam cried happily, holding his arm like it was a puppy, “It followed me home, do you think we can keep it?”
      I laughed, looking him over, he was completely sober...in contrast to her good buzz...as she would put it, “Sorry, there’re no pets allowed in here. You’ll have to put it outside. Where did you go to find it?”
      Heero glared at me.
      “I went into town...I couldn’t help it...it was just too cute...do you want it?”
      I really wanted to slap him. He had no right to go into town without telling...me...
      I looked him over, then looked at her, “You have an in with the land-lord...you should see if you can keep it.” I flicked my hair back and he noticed what I was wearing...could probably smell my perfume... “Besides, I don’t want it.”
      Sam wasn’t listening though, when I’d said ‘land-lord’ she’d went a bit dreamy eyed.
      She pushed him at me, starting down the hall, “The land-lord...” she muttered, her voice considering.
      I laughed, “Hey, you forgot your...”
      Heero had stepped in the door, though, and slammed it before I could finish.
      I stepped back and looked him over, and turned my back on him, going back to the bed and picking up my book again.
      Heero stayed in the same place, watching me with no expression as I made myself comfortable.
      It was hard not to just blow up at him...the fact that he expected me to was making it a bit difficult...on top of everything else, he’d lied to me.
      Not that him saying he was going with Relena, then ending up in town was a bad lie, but it was more of one than he’d uttered in ages...at least a year...
      There was something about his mannerisms...he hadn’t gotten layed. Something told me that Relena wasn’t the reason they hadn’t fucked.
      I stopped reading after awhile and looked at him, “Problem?”
      He didn’t say anything.
      Suddenly I was glad I hadn’t gave in to Wufei...I buried that thought quickly.
      I put the book marker in the book and set it down, “Be a dear, Asshole, and turn off the light for me.” I pulled back the blankets and settled down, covering myself.
      He didn’t turn out the light.
      I looked up at him again, “What are you doing? At least be useful.”
      He was glaring at me and pissed...utterly pissed...he took a breath, about to say something, but there was a tap at the door.
      He shook his head as he met my eyes, a promise that he’d finish later, then turned and opened it, confused.
      Wufei was standing there in his jeans, he looked at Heero, “What are you doing back already?”
      Heero glared at him as I came to the door, “What took you so long? You should have come back a half an hour ago.”
      He met my eyes, his own slightly confused as he looked at me, “I took a shower.”
      I rolled my eyes.
      “What the fuck?” Heero demanded of both of us.
      I laughed, “Exactly, if you’d been back we could’ve...”
      Heero slammed the door in Wufei’s face and turned to me.
      The door opened and Wufei looked at me, “You could come with me right now, if you wanted to.”
      I smiled, starting to step around Heero, knowing he wasn’t going to let me go.
      I was right, he put an arm out and I stepped into it.
      Wufei looked to Heero, disbelieving, then met my eyes again.
      I smiled.
      Wufei shrugged, shaking his head, “Sorry I was late. Maybe some other time...”
      I nodded, completely sincere. I wanted to fuck Wufei.
      He waited a moment longer, then left.
      Heero stood there, watching me, holding onto my arm with his hand.
      “Was I right? Did she find other entertainment?”
      He pushed me away from him, “I left.”
      I regained my balance, completely shocked that he’d done that...he’d nearly thrown me, “Why? That was pretty stupid of you.”
      He stepped toward me and I didn’t move, giving him a lofty look, “I take it you encouraged our story?”
      He didn’t say anything.
      I hated it when he didn’t react to what I said... “You’re no fun. I’m going to bed.”
      I turned my back to him and started for the bed, he followed, “What is your problem!”
      I stopped and looked at him, “Excuse me? I was gonna get layed until you showed up...do you really need to ask what my problem is? I’m sorry if you’re own fell through, but you don’t need to ruin my night because of it...”
      He closed his eyes, rubbing the bridge of his nose...something he only did when stressed.
      I frowned, “What’s the matter?”
      He looked back up to me, his eyes disbelieving as Wufei’s had been, “What’s the matter?”
      I gave him a look, “Is there an echo in here, or is it just me?”
      “How can you be such a bitch?”
      I looked him over coolly, “Piss me off tonight, I dare you. I do have a place to go for my own entertainment...”
      “I could have fucked Relena tonight...”
      “I know, why didn’t you?”
      “Because of you!”
      I didn’t quite get that, “What?”
      He nodded, “Yes, because of you. You have some reason you don’t want me to sleep with her, and I’m not doing it because of that. I hope that makes you happy.”
      I was shocked, “You should have just done it.”
      He took a deep breath and paced away from me, “You don’t make any sense!” he exploded, throwing his arms out to the side, “How can you tell me no one instant and yes the next? How can you fuck me one night, and then go try to get down some other guys pants? Why does it have to be Wufei? I mean...I would be more okay if it were a complete stranger...but Wufei? Nikki...”
      “Go away.” I told him, “I don’t want to deal with you tonight.” I couldn’t help but notice his lack of mentioning Relena in that tirade. He couldn’t call me on it if he were doing the same thing.
      “Where do I have to go?”
      “Fine, I’ll leave.” I headed for the door.
      “Darashinai...”
      That meant...
      “You’re a slut.” he corrected himself.
      He only slipped into Japanese like that when he was serious...upset...hurt...
      I stopped, not being able to help it anymore, the tears I’d been fighting since he came in hit and I turned on him, “How am I a slut? It’s not like I was actually going to fuck him tonight! He knew it too, you stupid asshole! Unlike you, though, he fucking knows what’s going on!”
      “You think he wasn’t intending to fuck you if you went with him now?”
      I really didn’t know if he would have or not...and I didn’t really care. I would have fucked him.
      “He’s just like any other guy, Nikki, he’d take advantage of you for a good lay if he could. You think he’s all noble? Did I forget to mention that he slept with my girlfriend before...I must admit, though, he wants to fuck you pretty bad...”
      I didn’t let myself think about that, I needed to be mad at him. Besides, this was dangerous ground. Too much might be said in anger...
      “So you call me a slut instead.”
      He closed his eyes again, thinking, “You’re not a slut...” he sighed, “I just had to stop you from leaving...”
      “Why?” I made my voice ice.
      He looked at me, “Because I don’t want you to sleep with him. I actually don’t want you to sleep with anyone...”
      “But it’s all right for you to sleep around? Who’s the slut now?”
      He glared at me, “How am I a slut if I’m in here with you right now? If I didn’t go through with it?”
      I looked around the room, “We’ll have to get someone to check that...”
      He shook his head, “What?”
      I looked at him, making myself completely innocent, “The echo.” I explained, starting for the dresser, grabbing some clothes.
      I just had to get out of here.
      “What are you doing?” he asked after I had grabbed my perfume and a brush.
      I looked at him, “I don’t want to deal with you tonight. I thought I’d made that abundantly clear.”
      “What?”
      “I don’t like dealing with people who’ve lied to me, dear. You know that.” I started for the door.
      He was in front of me before I could go, “I didn’t lie to you!”
      “Yes, you did. Move.”
      I realized my mistake right there, he was being contrary with me today, giving him orders didn’t work.
      He stared at me, then deliberately pulled my things from my hands, “You’re not leaving.”
      I couldn’t believe him...I really couldn’t, “Give me my shit back, and move.” I repeated.
      “You’re right,” he said looking around, “we really do need to get someone to fix that echo.”
      I crossed my arms as he threw my stuff onto the bed, “I’m leaving, Heero-ai...”
      He laughed emptily, “I love that, Nikki, I really do...”
      I shook my head, “What?”
      “Heero-ai.” he repeated, “Heero-love...” he laughed again. I had a feeling things were about to get really screwed up.
      I shook my head, “Move.”
      He sobered, “No. There’s more going on here than meets the eye, and I don’t want him fucking you.”
      “Like it’s in any way anything to do with you!”
      “He’s not fucking you.” he repeated.
      I shook my head, “What’s wrong with you?”
      “He’s not fucking you.” there was emphasis on it this time.
      “Neither are you.” I informed him pointedly.
      “And neither is Quatre, and neither is Duo.”
      “Then I guess that leaves me one option...” I took a deep breath, remembering how fast he’d come when Heero’d thrown the brush, “Trowa!”

<--

-->

Kyeian